The thing is doctor yes, I still see my wife and my son, but I’ve also watched both of them lowered into the ground. And when you see a loved one buried, you have one thought over and over and over again. And that’s that you would do anything- anything to get them back. So if you’re telling me that the price of seeing them, feeling them, of having them in my life is my sanity, that’s a price I will happily pay. Now I’ll come see you and talk to you as long as they make me, but when it comes to letting one of them go, I have no desire to ever make any progress. Awake 1.01